Black Horse and The Cherry Tree

I’m probably gonna do this for the talent show 😀

Fall Out Boy <3 <3 <3

“Sugar We’re Going Down”

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I’ve been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that’s just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I’m just a notch in your bedpost
But you’re just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you’re just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We’re always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don’t mind me I’m watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn’t it messed up how I’m just dying to be him
I’m just a notch in your bedpost
But you’re just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you’re just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We’re always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We’re going down, down (down, down)
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

We’re going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we’re going down swinging
I’ll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it

[Note: The correct lyrics really say “GOD complex”. It was confirmed by band members]

Song Requests..? Maybe? :S

I wanna take in song requests..Like I’ll just put the lyrics or something. I might sing. MAYBE! Haha. It all depends if I can get things to work right with my phone/laptop. Just comment below!!❤

P.S.: Thank you to all my followers!

I love you guys!<3

Songs And The Meaning Of Their Lyrics (and other junk)

Have you ever started listening to a sad song and the lyrics just fit the situation you’re going through so perfectly that you just cry? Well…it sucks when it happens. Mainly because it turns into nonstop crying. All night. One song that really got to me tonight was The Light Behind Your Eyes by My Chemical Romance. It mainly talks about losing people you’ve loved whether it be they passed away or they just aren’t in your life anymore. Either way it makes me cry. I’ve lost 4 people in my whole 15 years of living and even now I still refuse to admit they’re all gone. Losing someone you love and grow up with is so hard to get over. I can’t even look at a picture of any of them without wanting to cry. Well anyway, I wanted to list a few songs that I think have a lot of meaning.

• When You’re Young by 3 Doors Down —“So far away from knowing where I am going. I am trying hard to find out who I am. They all say that I don’t know what I am doing. I say they don’t hardly understand”

These couple of lines kinda hit home for me mainly because this is exactly how I’ve felt for a very very long time and I don’t think it could have been worded any better. It’s just saying “I don’t know who I am yet but I am trying to figure it out and even if you say I’ll never find out well then you’ll never understand me.” This has pretty much been the exact argument between my mother and I.

“Everything seems perfect. Everything’s OK. It will all get better now. At least that’s what they say. But I don’t see it coming.”

Once again, this part really got to me. I am constantly having to tell myself that everything will be okay and that it’s all gonna get better when it’s obviously not going to. Hence the part “But I don’t see it coming.” I know my life will never be as perfect as I want it to be. It would be perfect if I had a mother that didn’t constantly drink and constantly bullied me. It’d be perfect if I had a dad that could trust me again. It’d be perfect if I hadn’t made so many mistakes and tore my family apart. It’d be perfect if I could have a little sister that still looked up to me. It’d be perfect if…I could just go back and stop someone from drinking himself to death. If I could tell her to wear her seat belt before going down that road. If I could tell her I love her before she passed away. If I could have followed her when she ran away from me and left me alone. But no. Life isn’t perfect.

• Not Falling Apart by Maroon 5—“Now I can’t walk, I can’t talk anymore. Since you walked out the door. And now I’m stuck living out that night again. I’m not falling apart”

Man, just this small part brings back so many memories. Obviously it’s talking about heartbreak and getting used/played. I love the way it’s put because it’s just perfect. Pretty much saying yeah you walked out on me but I’m not gonna fall apart. Or you can look at it as saying you walked out on me and I’m gonna say I’m not completely torn apart but that I’m perfectly okay. I for one look at it like the second way. Mainly because that’s what happened to me. You think you’re “in love” with someone, give yourself to that person and then have them just walk out on you. Two years of your life just gone. I had put on a smile and acted like it didn’t hurt but I was really just dying on the inside and I felt like I was slowly falling apart and losing myself.

Well that’s the end of that. I guess the point of me doing this was to let, whoever reads this, to know a little about me and a little bit of the reason of why I act the way I do.

Now onto ranting. My boyfriends mother is BEYOND annoying. She’s that one parent that is just way to overprotective and tries so hard to be the “cool parent” that is just becomes annoying. He’s 15 but she treats him like he’s 5 which is just dumb. I understand that he’ll always be your little boy but seriously? Getting mad because he slept with one to many pillows because it didn’t look comfortable to her? Like really? And the fact that this all happened at like 3-5 in them morning just pissed me off. And she kept coming in and out of the room to “finish the argument”. -__- GROW UP. He’s 15. Not 5. Give him space. Loosen the leash. The tighter you hold on the worse he wants to get free. I don’t understand why she can’t see this. I mean she’s been with my boyfriend longer than I have (obviously. It’s his mom.) and from the moment I’ve met her til now It’s just gotten worse and I can tell he’s not exactly happy. So there’s that argument.

Secrets. I have so many of them. Especially one I’ve never told anybody ever. I don’t think I will ever tell anybody really. I think that’s mainly because I can still barely cope with it and just the thought of it makes me want to puke.

Maybe when I can cope with it I’ll talk about it with someone. Maybe.

Anywho, I think I may just end it here. Goodnight loves<3

P.S.: Please support gay marriage!!! Everyone deserves to have that dream wedding!! 😀